Affected.

 I guess my blog had affected more people than I ever wanted it to. As of last night it seemed like nothing had changed. I just realized what good friends I have. The kind who will do anything just to make you happy. Even if you make them take to you on the phone for 4 hours. The crap load of drama finally got to me. Drama is so pointless ans stupid.. why waste your time even thinking about it? It's amazing how one person can only focus on you flaws and tell everyone just to see you fall. Even in their spare time they find even more reason why your a bitch, loser, freak, or just weird. All that I seem to focus on was the negtive side of things instead of the postive side. Last night I was at the same place I was a couple months ago. Which was me beating myself up. I was thinking all of the wrong things. I only was realzing all of the things that was wrong with me, thinking nobody wanted me around, and I would be better of dead.  For some people they were taking the words I write and twisting them around. To make it seem like I'm full of myself. If you don't like what i'm writing then don't read it. It's as simple as that. I have no idea where all of this drama started over a blog. It seems kind of silly.. doesn't it?  But now realzing that being sad isn't any fun, I was just going to forget all of the drama. Its sounds easier then it acually is. I think the most important thing that I realzied was that ditch the drama, move on its not worth it. Some people just aren't worth your breath so why waste it? The whole reason why I even started this blog was because I just needed a way to express myself and I guess that is through writting.